Arrrggghhhh!!!!

I swear my kids were born to drive me totally and completely bonkers!

J keeps sneezing and coughing all over me, refusing to cover his mouth, and pulling/climbing all over me, even though he knows I'm in pain.

B keeps headbutting me in the jaw and climbing on my back.

I swear I'm slowly losing control over my life.
I've only managed to do one thing on my list as I've spent most of the day asleep trying to escape from the pain.
CC (as much as I love him) doesn't seem to understand how the pain makes me cranky, and the boys seem to just want to push my buttons to get me to break, just for the fun of it.

The Olympics are giving me the shits, there's nothing on TV BUT the ruddy Olympics.

I guess I need to get over myself but I'm just so damn cranky!

CC seems to be getting sucked back into online games after all the shit we had in May (whole other story, I should fill you in on it sometime).
I'm at a lose as to what to do, with the boys, with CC, with my inability to do what I should be doing and being able to control my emotions.

I have fought the Black Dog since I was 14. I've been on and off meds ever since. It has ow got to the point where my family members think there ust be more to it than just depression. My GP gave me 2 options when I spoke to him about Bipolar, 1. keep taking antidepressants as well as a mood stabiliser such as epilum (been on epilum before just made me sleep all the time) and 2. See a psychiatrist. I chose to see a psychiatrist and have an appointment on the 19th to see if he thinks I may have Bipolar disorder. Will be interesting to see what he has to say.

Oh well I'll probably be back later on....