Monday, September 7, 2009

I'm not able to concentrate real well right now as I'm a tad high but I will try to respond a bit.

In regards to Hubby we have been working things out over the last 12 months and things are much better. I used to bottle everything up but now I am able to talk to him about the things that are bugging me and that way it doesn't get to a blow up point. I know now that he is my rock and I have told him so. If I didn't have him around I wouldn't be able to cope.

Study has been on the back burner for about a month as I'm having trouble focusing on any one thing for very long, which reminds me I must email my teachers today.

Sleep is an evil thing that comes and goes. I swear it just likes to drive me even more mental. I woke up yesterday at 10am fell asleep at 3pm woke at 5pm and haven't been to sleep since and am not at all tired. I honestly feel "wired" I guess the word is.

I have been trying to read as much as I can about Bipolar and I watched a documentary featuring Stephen Fry that was quiet good. I can relate to his situation with buying things just because you want them then have no idea what to do with them.

I'm worried about my kids growing up with their mum being a loony. I quite often don't know how to react to things they do and so I just leave them to it. They are almost always well behaved when we go out though, they just like to run riot at home.

I'm trying to get in to see a public psychiatrist through a place called Parkside here in Tassie. Apparently they are flat out though. Should I ask y gp if their are shrinks through the hospital? Like through the mental health wing thingy (psych ward)? I have no idea what to do and feel quite isolated. I don't think my hubby really wants to know what happens in my head as he refuses to read any of the info I've tried to get him to read.


A person I know has a huge menagerie of 14 cats, dogs, birds and rabbits!!!! We have a cat and 4 tanks of fish :) I want to get a Doberman but hubby wants a Husky >< I think we'll end up with a husky though as they are more often in the pound for re adoption.

Anyways off to play with my Wii and try to burn some energy Very Happy

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

Having a wierd day

I woke up this morning about 7:30am and drifted in and out of sleep till about 9. When I got up my neck was aching and so was my tooth. I'm teething. Yay for me! :( I'm 24 and bloody teething!!! Stupid wisdom teeth.

Anyway I felt drained but had to get up to get J off to school all be it late but at least he got there.
Then I started to feel really energetic like I could do anything and all happy, then all of a sudden I feel crap and drained again :(
Hopefully I pick up again soon and feel ok for the rest of the day. Have appointment with the psychologist this arvo. Maybe its normal to cycle like this?